maybe

"since we've been together, you never really chose me over something, did you?"

the words struck me. i couldn't utter any word, and that made him walk away.


i never chose him over something.


maybe that's why i lost my friends because i don't hang out with them anymore;

maybe that's why my grades are flunking because i cut classes;

maybe that's why i couldn't have things for myself alone;

maybe that's why i starve myself so i could save money for something;

maybe that's why i stay up late at night to wait for goodnight texts;

maybe that's why i couldn't be happy if he's not around.


maybe those aren't enough.
maybe sacrifice won't make a person stay.


no tears fell.


i did not chase him anymore.